2
Aug
2015

Turing, Terminators, and Tough Decisions

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"We can only see a short distance ahead, but we can see plenty there that needs to be done." - Alan Turing

Long post incoming, so go grab a coffee first. But while you're heading to the kitchen, ask yourself:

What are you doing with your life?

While attending the International Security and Intelligence program in Cambridge, my peers and I spent a good amount of time talking about why people do what they do. What separates the personal drive between someone who watches Netflix all day and someone who joins the Peace Corps?

In order to do something great you're going to need some type of inspiration. Besides coffee, you need something to get you going. Certain determined individuals already have it figured out; they are able to be sitting on the toilet when an idea comes to them and they think, "I'm going to do something great today," and then proceed to devote their lives to the development of some sort of world-changing idea. That's an extreme example, but it does happen.

But most of the time, inspiration is going to come from some outside source. When I was a little kid (around ages 6-11 or so), for whatever reason, I was inspired by Arnold Schwarzenegger. I remember watching the first two Terminator movies with my dad. I didn't realize who this giant human being was at the time, but as I grew older, I could see why millions of people use him as a stereotypical example of inspiration. He first became famous for lifting weights, then made some movies, then got into politics, and now he's spending most of his time performing charity work. Sounds like a fulfilling life, no?

"I'll be back... as the governor of California."


What Arnold accomplished is nothing to sneeze at, but it is worth noting that everything he has done that has resulted in glory has been openly presented to the public. What bodybuilder doesn't want to be Mr. Olympia? What aspiring theater student wouldn't jump at the chance to star in a dystopian robot movie? Simply put, there are rewards involved - money, connections, happiness, fame. Arnold's profession was multifaceted, but overall, it revolved around notoriety. What I want to talk about is an inspirational profession that involves none of that.

Many of the jobs within the intelligence community are some of the most thankless jobs anyone could ever pursue. If something goes right and you discover information or draw certain connections during the analysis phase, and you prevent a nasty terrorist attack, you can't disclose the details because your enemies will know how you stopped them. And if something goes wrong? Every single person in your country is now pointing fingers, shoving the blame onto you. (See: 9/11)

After some type of unforeseen attack, it's very easy to take a step back, look at the evidence that your intelligence community provided, and say, "How did we not see this coming?!" Most of the time it's not very fair to take this stance. This is called "connecting the dots" and it can be done in two ways: before the event and after the event. Preventing an attack would require connecting the dots in a timely manner before the attack, which is often very difficult. After an attack occurs, however, it will become exceedingly clear which dots were relevant and which were not. That's a simple explanation. It's an inherently tough job and the factors that influence your intelligence collection, validation, analysis, etc. are incredibly numerous.

Know this - there are tens of thousands of people that are working to keep you safe. They are working every hour of every day. They devote their lives to preventing the next attack, and they do it all for the purpose of national security. The important bit here is that they do it all discreetly. I'm not in one of those positions, so I don't know how I would feel if I worked a 120-hour week and was able to provide intelligence that prevented people from dying. Anyone not immediately relevant to the case would have any idea of what you did, and there would be but one reward: the knowledge that you had saved people's lives.

I'm not trying to make a huge statement here. This post isn't meant to sound like it's being given from atop a soapbox. Rather, I just want people to acknowledge the "man behind the curtain" that stopped the subway car they're on from being gassed, or the hotel they're staying in from being shot up, or the plane they're on from going down. Yes, of course it's not fun to think about these issues. They're morbid. But if a select group of people wasn't willing to spend such large portions of their lives preventing these things from happening, we would be in a pretty bad position. The people that play these roles deserve praise, too, even if we can't directly attribute it to individuals.

But enough about this! Let's move on to one of the field trips we went on and also one of the baddest dudes that lived during the 20th century.

During my time attending the ISI program, we visited Bletchley Park and Madingley American Cemetery.

Bletchley Park was a top secret code breaking facility opened in 1938 and it was converted into a museum during the 90s. There were thousands of people who worked here during WWII and very many of them have gone unnoticed, their deeds done primarily in blacked-out "huts." By far, the most prominent person associated with this place is Alan Turing.

To keep things somewhat short, Alan's team of mathematicians and cryptologists is the reason that many of us are here today. The Battle of the Atlantic lasted more or less the entire war, and because of Alan's work with the German Enigma machine, the Allies' fleets could traverse the seas much more safely.

But his work at Bletchley is only a small part of his legacy - he's considered the founding father of computer science. From his numerous papers detailing computer programming and instruction sets to biological experiments with nature and Fibonacci numbers, Turing was, in every sense of the word, a genius. His arguments regarding artificial intelligence have set the standard and they still hold up even today, bridging the gaps between philosophy and computing and generating questions such as "What is intelligence?" and "Can machines think?"

If you're interested in these topics AT ALL, go look them up. A good number of his papers (published and unpublished) are online and they're actually quite readable. He's one of the few people who could explain graduate level topics without completely going over your head. Even if you just want an interesting read, check out his objections and replies to whether or not strong AI can exist.

Some estimates claim that his work shortened the War by as much as two years, saving millions upon millions of lives. That's somewhat debatable but it's still astounding.

It was great to finally meet Alan in person. He was a nice guy. Didn't talk much though.

Notice the dates on the above picture of his statue. He died when he was 41. If you think about it for too long it becomes upsetting. Someone who understood Einstein's papers at age 16 and contributed a mountain of beneficial scientific knowledge to the entire world still had half of his life to live.

While Turing is famous for his actions, many of the people who worked alongside him are not. As many as 10,000 people worked at Bletchley during the War. They all kept the nature of their jobs secret. We'll never know exactly the names of everyone who contributed to keeping our grandparents alive, but we can use their selfless work to give us inspiration. The few people we can thank, though, deserve it. So thank you, Mr. Turing. Your work helped put a man on the moon, a computer in our pocket, and kept many of our grandparents alive. Without you, our lives would be much smaller and our cemeteries would be much bigger.

Madingley contains 3,809 headstones and its Wall of the Missing bears 5,127 names of missing servicemen and women. While most of the names represented soldiers, there were also cooks, housekeepers, janitors, and the like.


I hope the above ramblings have been informative, but my real purpose here is to have you ask yourself two questions: What inspires you? and What would you die for?

I want you to really think about this. I mean really think about this. Let these questions keep you up at night.

Too often we approach these questions broadly. 

"That inspirational quote on the wall inspires me."

"Steve Jobs inspires me."

"I would die for my friends."

"I would die for my family."

If those are your answers, just be aware that they're also everyone else's answers. Ask any of your friends and you'll most likely hear some of those exact words. Don't get me wrong - those are honorable causes but they should be examined in a more specific capacity, so let's get real for a moment.

If you had the choice of giving up your life so a member of your family could go on living, would you do it? What if you could give up your life so a member of your family wouldn't have to endure intense suffering, even if they were going to live afterwards anyway? Would you die for a member of your family if it meant they wouldn't stub their toe while watering their spice garden, preventing them from crying for 20 minutes? It's relative, it's not black and white, it's tough, but it's easy to see that there's a threshold somewhere. It's up to you to decide exactly where that lies. 

For what it's worth, I'll throw my answer in here. I don't know what I would die for. If you told me, "Hey Joe, the earth will explode unless you drink this cup of lava," my answer would be easy to make. If you told me, "Either you or a family member must drink this cup of lava," the answer would be a bit more difficult.

This is lava. I'm not sure of this lava's exact temperature, but it's somewhere in the neighborhood of "like, totally super hot."

An answer might be an immediate "Yes" and involve unconditional love, but realistically, it might not. The family member could be elderly and extremely sick and tell you that you are capable of bringing much more joy into the world than they are, or the family member might be a mere toddler and be showing signs of incredible intelligence and have their whole lives ahead of them. You might even end up weighing your accomplishments and potential accomplishments against the other person's in order to make your decision. If you do that, you'll be faced with some inner reflection that brings us right back to the start of this long-winded post: What are you doing with your life?

As for inspiration, I think it's easy to see who inspires me. Turing's work ethic was crazy. He devoted years of his life to working alongside a team that had a purpose of saving others, and most of it was done without any expectation of an external reward. That's what really gets me, as many of the things we do in our lives are done for the advancement of ourselves and not for the good of others. Additionally, the person or place that ends up being a source of inspiration for you is not going to be the same as the one for me. On the field trip, a bunch of my friends found Madingley more powerful than Bletchley. Both places represented people who devoted lives or portions of their lives to protecting others, but in the end, Bletchley spoke to me more deeply because I'm a computer scientist. Some of my peers who are history majors or international studies majors or future soldiers got more out of Madingley. Ergo, your inspiration is deeply personal and largely relevant to the paths in life you've already taken.

Both the soldiers buried at Madingley and the people who worked at Bletchley didn't do what they did for fame or fortune. We can even relate their actions to a Catholic teaching (as I do attend The Mount and all). There's a Bible verse in Matthew that goes: 

"When you pray, you are not to be like the hypocrites; for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and on the street corners so that they may be seen by men. Truly I say to you, they have their reward in full. But you, when you pray, go into your inner room, close your door and pray to your Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees what is done in secret will reward you."

This is just like a job in the intelligence community. This embodies the idea behind the Unknown Soldier. No one sees the great things that you try to do, but you are rewarded by inner knowledge that you contributed to saving the lives of others.

To sum this up, and to be direct, here's what you can walk away with today:

  • There are a lot of people trying to keep you being not dead. They go to work every day without expecting thanks from anyone.
  • Don't be afraid to be cliche and ask yourself the big life questions, but don't overgeneralize. Come up with some specifics and you'll learn more about yourself.
  • Find something that actually inspires you. Inspiration is not overrated, and half the time the only real difficulty is getting off the couch.

Studying at Cambridge or any other university puts you in direct contact with others who are on the same journey that you're on. It gives you a lot of time to talk to others who are like you, allowing you to develop thoughts that you haven't really spent time entertaining. Traveling to significant historical sites puts those thoughts into perspective. And combining your newly formulated thoughts with your newly gained perspective helps you create a better worldview, a stronger sense of self, and a more definitive grasp on what you truly desire to pursue during your limited time.

So I'll ask again:



What are you doing with your life?

-Joe


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